I will have to take some pictures of Breanna today outside playing. I haven’t posted very many lately.

Its another great summer of Badminton, and of course Precious loves chasing the missed birdies yet. I look at it this way at least they are both getting exercise even if they do wear my ass out!!! LOL

Enjoy the first day of summer people, get out there and make something out of it, its gorgeous out!

WOW… Breanna will be 10 in 3 days. Damn where did 10 years go? Seems like yesterday I was changing her diaper and watching her learn to walk! 10…. OMG!!

Breanna’s field trip to Laurel Caverns was really nice…. minus the part where some little brat stole her money! But, she did have a good time and we plan on visiting there ourselves sometime this summer… I hope! LOL

You know what? Since the weather has gotten nicer the freaks have started to come out of hibernation! We had some lunatic running around with a gun, a couple of screwballs driving around in a van trying to get into houses, and some nut that escaped from a hospital all within a month!! HOW SCAREY IS THIS??? You got to be afraid to let your kids out to play anymore.

Today is Breanna’s last day of school, she is HAPPY…LOL!! After school today she is going to a party and then coming home to put all her clothing away. How happy do you think she is going to be now??? LOL….

Got a question… Does anyone else have a child that is a poor sport? Well, I do! We were out playing lawn darts (with the safe ones) last night and not even have way through the game she decides she is going to quit playing because she wasn’t winning. She when and sat on the swing set and moped. Then when her dad and I started playing she ran into the house. THEN she got pissed when she came back out and we were done!! She thought that just because she spent the last 45 minutes in the house and now decided to come back out we were to play…..WRONG!!! Did this ever happen to anyone besides us?

Breanna had a nice Easter as she usually does. This Easter was a little more special for her because she had her father with her as well, of course she would not admit this to him…LOL

Breanna’s two cousins were here for this Easter as well, she had someone to help find the eggs, and I still ended up finding the last 4 eggs!! You should have heard them whining about not being able to do this. You would like it was something like their toys they lost instead of some eggs. It was just too funny!

The holidays are not my favorite thing, maybe with Harry back things will start to get a little better. I haven’t enjoyed the holidays in many years. There is part of me missing every year.

Breanna painting eggs, love the way they cleaned off the table!!

She looks SOOO happy, this make me happy!!

Breanna has the West Test coming up this week, I am getting nervous. For those who don’t know what the West Test its the same as the SAT’s.  She has the writing part on Wednesday, then next month she will have the rest. The teacher has been preparing them for this so I hope she remembers what she learned. She does Excellent in school so this shouldn’t be too hard. So far this year NOTHING BUT A’s!!! She is so proud and so am I… my little genius!

Just think Easter is only a few weeks away. Thats good right? The weather should be NICE! One can always hope… I know I am…LOL I will have to get some new pics for Easter this year. Maybe Precious will get a new dress from the Easter Bunny .. LOL

For the first time in my life I think I am at a loss of words, holy shit!!!

Okay, I am going to give this a try, but if it gets confusing please remember I can’t think straight!! LOL

Back 10 years ago I lost one of the most important people in my life. He was also the father of my youngest child, Breanna. Yep, I said youngest but we will get to that later! LOL Anyway, I tried for years to try and find him after we split up. I finally was told about 8-9 years ago that he moved to Texas. So, I stopped trying to look, Texas is a big place and if he wanted anything to do with us he would have stayed. Over the years I would see if I could find him on the net. I would check MySpace and do random searches, nothing! That was until March rolled around!

Michelle my best friend from school and a dear friend to this day asked me repeatedly to open a Facebook account. So, I finally did. One day I was on Facebook more than likely playing those damn games you can’t seem to stop doing and my sister mentioned about looking for Harry, Breanna’s father and the man I have NEVER stopped loving, Of course I looked at her like she was nuts after 10 years the chances of him showing up out of the blue is slim to none, right? Well, she kept hounding me and finally I typed his name in. Well, instead of no hits there was 100′s with no pictures and info. Why would this be easy when nothing else never is??? LOL …So, we sat looking at the computer and I dreaded my task of checking 100′s of pages. Kris said I had my work cut out for me, and I just clicked on one and there he was! The first damn one I picked was him!! I about fell off my chair. No lie!!

So a new battle began, should I send him a friends request or leave well enough alone??? That was the question!! LOL I refusing to push that damn button and my sister telling me to just send the fucking thing was what happened here for the next 30 minutes. Finally I thought of Breanna and not myself, I would have to handle anything that came my way for her sake. She deserves to know her father and he needed to know his daughter so…. I pushed the damn button!!

I was a total WRECK!! I would not stop saying what have I done, there is no way, what the hell is wrong with me. See, I was told that he moved to Texas to be with someone… kind of changes things over the years, huh. I never lost that love for him and trust me when I say I have tried. Nothing I did or anyone I was with could take the love I had for him, so I just gave up looking. In my heart I knew it would never work with anyone else for whatever reason.

I was on playing Farmville, yep I remember the game! I got the little message that he excepted my friends request. Holy shit I almost fell off the chair again. Once again I was a wreck, how am I going to do this? How am I going to put my feelings aside and be able to communicate with him without dying inside. I knew I had to for Breanna’s sake and I decided I would do whatever I had to to give her a relationship with her father.

We ended up talking on Messenger for a little bit and then he asked to talk to Breanna. Within 10 minutes he was on the phone with me, and let me tell you this, it was as though someone took my heart out and stomped on it. I could NEVER explain all the emotions that ran thought me at once. I was torn in half, act normal or tell him. Of course telling him was out of the question seeing how he was with someone, so I tried the best I could. Breanna was happy and that was what mattered more than any thing. I pushed the pain aside and done what I had to, he called Breanna everyday, sometimes 2-3 times a day. Everyday it got harder but I hung in there..LOL life is a total pain in the ass at times! LOL

Then one day out of the blue he calls while Breanna is in school, we chat a little about nothing really. We say goodbye and hang up, 5 minutes later he calls back again and says there is something he needs to tell me. Yep, you guessed it! He told me that he still loved me, that he always has. I know that feeling trust me!! LOL

Well, I am still nervous about telling him so I said I felt the same way. The rest in really history. We got him a plane ticket, we picked his butt up at the airport on Monday. Hes back with me and Breanna. There is nothing I won’t do to make sure he stays here. NOTHING!

I have waited 10 years to have the love of my life back, and if it wasn’t for assholes telling us they had no clue where we were it would have been sooner. He was told the wrong state and I was told “we don’t know”! Totally pisses me off for sure. But, he is definitely worth the wait. I would have waited another 10 years if thats what it took.

I am so happy now, I am still a little scared but I am sooo happy never in a million years would I have thought this would happen, see God does work in mysterious ways! Thank you!!!

Now I know I mentioned youngest…. there is more to come another day. I need to go be with my man and not this computer…. talk to you all soon!

Stay up and screw around on facebook! My butt will be draggin come morning. But, I sure have enough to think about until then!

The horrible thing is her cousin looked worse than she does, only he took off and wouldn’t let me get a picture.

Dakota came in the house and said something about mud, well this got me to thinking and I had to see what all the laughing was about. When I walked up to the door all I seen was two VERY muddy unidentifiable people slinging mud at each other.

They took water out of the creek next to the house mixed it with dirt that was already mud because of all the rain and what do you know SUPER MUD!! It was the funniest thing watching them throw this. Dakota was too chicken to get involved! HE RAN!!

One VERY muddy kid!

She got to baths and I don’t think all the mud is out of her hair yet! Darran was digging mud out of his ear 2 hours later! It was awesome to watch!!!

I dare you to try and take my ball!!!!

I swear to God it looks like Precious is sticking her tongue out at someone!

Recent picture of Precious and Breanna

Your going to have to do better than that to fool me into thinking your asleep!!

The good news is I am ready for sunshine, swimming and hot dogs on the grill. I can’t wait to feel the sun on my skin instead of snow and cold! LOL…

Looking so forward to SUMMER…..